embarrassed

Sick at heart,

But embarrassed to show it

The evening wind.

Tate

Seeing Turner 

At the Tate

Gave me heart attack.

Titian

Titian's Madonna
Not a day older-
And my wrinkled hands!

Each new Spring-
Same remorse for man
Without children.

shades

May twilight-

Daisies pulling down

Their shades.

peonies

Pink fireworks-
The exploding peonies
Of East Sussex.

Torn

Torn between 

Watching wildflowers

Or cutting them.

drawer

Spring cleaning-

Old love letters still burning

In back drawer.

l'air de rien #92 Pancake! (Safi Maroc)

l'air de rien #92 (Safi Maroc) from cloudsandsea on Vimeo.

sink

Morning ants-
Kitchen sink-
Silent film.

knees

Spring morning-

Playground of ants

These knees.

questions

I wonder if its possible to access something deep inside of me in order to answer crucial questions about what I am after in my Painting. I seemed to have left a familiar path, one to which I had adhered during my early years in working.

I left the 'motif' which had anchored me to a visible pathway and its now more than ten years that I have been wrestling with myself in front of a blank canvas without the markings of a world visible in front of my eyes.

So the question one asks is "What am I after?"
What is it I am trying to do?

I can see over the last few years that I am after a kind of poetic, almost ephemeral feeling somewhat balanced between flight and pose. But isn't this every painter's dream in fact? I wonder if what really obsesses me isn't just a desperate attempt at understanding myself.

The following painting was done last fall before leaving for Australia. I had planned to work on it upon my return but seeing it on the wall (via SKYPE) a few friends have remarked that it was quite interesting "as is".

Perhaps I shall leave it "as is" for the moment. Maybe I need an editor to take work away from me before I destroy it or fall into a never-ending funnel of un-finish. 

And this (below) is the evolution of new painting done today.     

jewels

This afternoon
The cherry tree 
Emptied of jewels.

Cherry

Cherry tree-

"Enough for us both Blackbird!"

Morning dispute.

rain

I can hear it
Yet cannot see it-
The Spring rain.

pink

And what about
The alligator 
And the pink ball?

too cool

BIG BANG BIG BOOM - the new wall-painted animation by BLU from blu on Vimeo.

red

Imprisoned-

The red poppies

Of the brick terrace.

cedar

Hey moon!
Just for tonight
Kissed by cedar tree.

shadows

May mistral-
Herding cloud shadows
Across the hill.

surprise

Midnight surprise-

The nightingale

Stops singing!

l'air de rien #112 (In the Louvre with Bill Evans)

l'air de rien #112 (louvre) from cloudsandsea on Vimeo.

north

Eighteen horses-
All facing to the north,
I counted them.

May

For May flowers-
Whose legs are not sore
From dancing?

wild

Wild jasmine 
Hostage to honeysuckle-
The besotted blackbird!

nose!

Poor nose!
The gorgeous wildflowers
Tormenting thee.

l'air de rien #122 (Singapore - Dubai - Paris)

airport! from cloudsandsea on Vimeo.

hill

Chocolate wrapper-
Delivered to the ant hill
By tiny feet.

snow

May snow-
Acacia petals
Painting the sky.

lone

A nightingale

Puts lonely traveler 

To sleep.

Carmen

Bizet's Carmen

Someone whistles from the street-

Parisien dawn.

mouse

After long voyage,
Greeted in the shower 
By parisien mouse.

bus

In the rain

Large bus windows

Streaming tears.

bonbons!

Pink bonbons-
Clouds in an olive sky
As if glued.

Boeing

Boeing take-off-
Souvenir of
Today's surf.

heartless

A heartless God

Would have us live 

Without rainbows.